At the lowest point of my life yet,
I encountered Alifالف.
“ Alif bas harf nahi, ye zarf hai kamal ka
Ibteda jahan ki, jawaab har sawaal ka.”
It’s a straight line, written as “ الف”.
A straight line relationship- at one end is the person
And the other end is God.
The straighter the Alif the closer one is to the Almighty.
Alifالف was my journey from despair to humility,
From past regret to acceptance.
My guardian angel, an oasis in the desert of life.
Let me define my life in a Jumla:
“Toot’ta Hai Roz Dil Roz Joron Mein Isay
Basta Umeedo Ka Hai Roz Kholu Mein Isay.”
This HOPE keeps me going- A continuous cycle of Accept and Restart.
“Ishq Bhi Hai Aur Nazar Aasman Par Hai Khari
Tujh Ko Paalun Ya Yeh Apni Chor Dun Yeh Zindagi.”
Confusion, dejection, and a low-key note
That’s how the day started for me.
Mulling over the significance of the above Jumla in my life
And how to overcome them was the state of my mind.
As I opened the laptop to get some break, find some solace
Snippets of Alifالف popped in front giving me a tight, reassuring embrace.
Alifالف has made me see life differently.
I learned and understood the importance of pain and struggle.
To everybody who is wondering why such pain and struggle-
“Dard Hee Kyu Sikha Raha Hai Kaisay Jeetay Hai Zindagi
Dard Apna Dawa Samjh Tu Na Samjh Aisay Bebasi.”
Don’t feel powerless in front of pain.
Appreciation for sweetness comes only if you ever had a taste of bitterness.
In my life what helps in continuously reconciling with myself,
To never losing myself is the apt timing of Alifالف holding my hand- guiding & guarding.
When I feel shackled,
When things close seem farther,
When my people seem hard to reach,
When I am cluelessly stranded alone in the desert of life,
It’s Alifالف that stops me from going astray, my safe place.
“Tu samajh jaaye agar wajah apne wajood ki
Jhoom jaaye ye qalb tera kasratein sajood ki.”
I am on my way to know myself and the vast unknown.
Whenever I think about my existence and its importance
I stumble upon Alifالف – like the morning star guiding me forward.
In the harshest weather yet in life, I met Alifالف
And Alifالف keeps revisiting me providing warmth in the snowstorm.
Maybe subconsciously I want Alifالف by my side
‘Cause never have I ever sought it consciously.
Imagine how symbiotic subconscious and Alifالف are.
Oh, How I hope that one-day Alifالف will help me find taufiq!
Alifالف always finds its way to me.
Or is it me finding my way back to Alifالف!
Whenever in need, just at the right moment
Alifالف engulfs me making me eternally grateful for the blessing it is.
Ever thought of a home for the mind, a shelter in this blinding heat?
As we don’t differentiate water while quenching thirst from an oasis, so does God.
That’s how a Hindu me found shelter in the Islamic Alifالف.
P.S. All the text within quotes used to describe situation and state of mind are originally written and composed by Shuja Haider and are part of the OST of the drama Alif. Also, Alif is the first letter in Arabic and has a deep religious connotation. This hasn’t been written to hurt or offend the sentiment of any people belonging to any religion and I apologize if it did. And, sorry in case it gets too deep.
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